In 2011, i fell in and out of love and fell in love again
In 2011, i learnt hard lessons that paid heavy prices
In 2011, i know who mattered and who dosen't
In 2011, people walked in and some walked out
In 2011, i saw who were worth the effort and who wasn't
In 2011, i experienced many things that i never thought i would
In 2011, i learnt how important my family is to me
In 2011, i'm thankful i survived the crazy year and i'm thankful for everyone who played an amazing part in it

Thank you for everything the past year year my favourite most beloved farm babies, thnak you for all the memories created all the way back from secondary school ij days, every single one of you have been god-sent and i love you all just the way you are. Have a good year ahead and we will continue to remain awesomely tight together, hugs <3

EMMA LIM SHI QI
I don't have a picture with you this is depressing but this past year you have been been so supportive so encouraging so loving you have been such an angel i am so thankful for you. Thank you for always being thr no matter what hapepens, even if it means calling you at 3 in the morning. Thank you for breakfast sessions and for all the random texts you drop. I really miss you and i wanna meet you soon. i hope you are doing good now with your internship and i can't wait for you to be back in school. I love you emma, everyday always <3


For the one who probably heard me cry the most times this whole 365days, thank you for always checking on me to make sure things are going right for me and for just texting to see whr am i. Thank you for always always being there not only for this whole year but every other year. I'm glad i met you when i was 14 when i wrote V.T on my correction tape very tall indeed hahahaha. Thank you for all the times you were thr when you know all i needed was fr someone to be thr, i am so glad i can ring you up anytime just to kpkb and to whine and cry and to annoy the shit out of you. I'm even more glad that this year you finally decided to settle down and give your all to someone i know you can barely live without now. I'm happy to see that you are happy everyday just living in your own small world with your happy partner leading sweet lives everyday. You have been so amazing and i am so thankful for you. Thank you for everything this year tay xin yee, i love you and you know it <3



For the unbiological sister that i know will never fail me, we have talked lesser this year, we have definitely met up lesser but nothing can tear us apart. We have not drifted even though we hardly meet up and everytime we talk, we make a fool out of ourselves like old times and how we come up with stupid things like wearing macd uniform to a dress up party. You are one girl that i will never want to lose, that i know ill always be there no matter what happens and trust me when i say you've got my back. We have done so many crazy things together that i know we will still be doing shit together even when we are old hags. Our wayne heng moments, our crazy studying for amaths moments our emo guitar hero sessions ar your place, my aunties, your mummy, we are like sisters unrelated by blood. Thank you for everything this 2011 babygirl, i love you so so so much. We are for life <3


For the one who is always screwing up her grammar hehehehe, i love you so much chua sok kuang. I love you for always being so real for always being thr for always being true. I love you for all all unglam moments for all your fail grammar moments and for you just being you. Thank you for yet another year of friendship, for being someone i know i can count on for being someone i know i can trust. I'm glad you are now happy leading a sweet life with babynatty (i love you btw babe), you two are so sweet i know you all will be happy everyday. Thank you for random calls now and then whr we talk shit all the way and do the most retarded things ever. Thank you for coming over once in awhile and for keeping my company and for being there when i hit all-time low. All in all, thank you for being you, i love you babyhamster <3


For the one who come up with the lamest and coldest jokes ever, i'm ever so thankful for you for always being one of the familiar faces i see in school. Thank you for always hearing me rant that once in while whn i see you for that short while in school, for that hug whn we see each other, for letting me know you will always be there if all else fails, for just being you and for being true. Thank you for being a gem that have been so precious and for always coming up with the best jokes to make me feel better when everything seems to be down. I appreciate all the little texts and all the little effort you have shown me, i hope you carry on staying happy everyday with you loved one hehehe i love you very much and i cant wait to see you soon tan szesze <3




For the girls who are the 'lovelies' on whatsapp, the people who i studied hard with throughout the tests, the crazy idea of heading to town for xmas shopping with mid-sems the next day, i'm so thankful we grew so close within this short period. Thank you for this friendship that is build to last and for making this f/s be so real that we can be ourselves and not having to worry aboout being judged because that's who we are. Thank you for being a part of my 2011 and i know as the new year arrives, we will continue to be the 'lovelies' on whatsapp and we will continue to annoy each other, i love you too krissy and yuan, always <3









And this one's for the boys who played such a huge part of my 2011, i'm so thankful for the 4 of you bizpark boys, for always being the best company, for just being your irritating and annoying selves hahaha and for just being nowhere but the best #1. Alot of happened throughout the year, the ups and the downs, the lefts and the rights, but i'm glad i that everything is over and we are all back on track, being happy people now, thank you for being more than just friends boys and for being so loving everyday. I'm thankful that you four faces are always the familiar faces that i see around everyday and seeing you all brightens up my day instantly. Thank you for the memories we created in 2011 and may we forge even happier memories this coming year. I love you all, every single one @ nichngg @ngkangjun @ernestsays @jeffurryy <3






For the people who make school less dreadful to go to and for the ones who make school a happy place everyday, thank you broccoli bomb for being a part of my 2011 and for making school such a happier place now that i've got you all. Thank you for all the times we rushed for deadlines and for all the times we have many epic moments, thank you to every single one of you for being the most wonderful groupmates ever and for being more than just groupmates. Thank you for all the fieldtrips we have whr we make fools out of ourselves and for all the nice movie dates we have hehehe, i'm so thankful for you all and may 2012 be an even better year for you and for us, distinction let's go! I love every single one of you broccolis @Sam_IsLegend @barbienattt @beLOVEDJERyn @Tijahmdali @ewethelamb <3










And lastly, this one's for the one who made the biggest impact in 2011, the one who showed me so much, the one who loved me no matter what hehe, the one who is willing to sacrifice so much, the one who made me cry but then smile again, the one whom i let down but then still stayed on, the one who is needless to say, the best, the one who always cook for me when i am hungry, the one who always hug me when i need it the most or the least hehe, the one who is always always there. Thank you for 2011 nicky, for everyday that you have done, for every effort that you have put in, us. for all that you have done, i appreciate every little thing and every little love and i treasure you like a precious gem because you have been god-sent. I can never expect us to end up this way at whr we are now, so happy with each other but i know we  will stay happy for the longest time ever. We have been through alot alot alot within a short period and i know that no matter what happens, i have got you and you have got me. I love you alot nicky boy, everyday, thank you for spending new year's eve and new year with me, it means so much, may 2012 be a better year for you and for me, and for us, i love you <3

AND NOW, FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WERE A PART OF MY 2011,


Love you so much natty <3

Forever PBF <3

The most annoying prick/wonky ever! <3

I love both of you so much meiting and sokkie <3

We are 4 life <3

Thank god for annoying classmates <3




The best girlssssssssss @rneeq @xueyo @kkrstng @sweetpunkd <3


The wonderful shanghai people <3

I love you my underground friend, stephy <3

Every annoying amousy hehe thankful for you, stay happy! <3

Love you very much kris! <3

My lovely trio hehehe love you all to death tan szesze fytmoo chua sokkie <3

Bernice chua, the one i always see in school and am ever ready to give a big hug to, stay preety stay happy, i love you so much i miss you <3


I love you hengy, chiamy, jochy <3

In 2012, i will learn to pen down every moment and i'll appreciate and treasure everyone around me. I'll not take anyone for granted and i'll enjoy the present for what it is.
With that, we are not into a new year with new dreams, new hopes, new resolutions. Thank you to all you wonderful people who grew up with me the past 2011 and cheers to a new beginning :)

I love every one of you, every single one, happy 2012 babies, xoxo.

 

 

love,  
j

I cannot understand why do i always screw up at the most crucial moment. When the chance comes by, everything just go all wrong, without you even realising that you had messed it up, very badly. It's always after it happened when you actually stop to think, and regret whatever you said or whatever you should have said or all that you should not have said. The feeling sucks, dosen't it?

It's times like these i wish i had the secret power to turn back time or predict what would happen next so i am able to get myself mentally prepared. Don't you just wish things would go the way you want to be, i really wish i could but yeah, the title says it all,

IT ISN'T ALWAYS HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE

At the end of it all, it dosen't matter how much i regret it or how much i wish i could turn back time, i did screw it up as much as i wish i didn't.